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I haven't used blogger in a while. I've moved my blog to Tumblr: http://filizemmasoyak.tumblr.com/
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And of course, my website always has the most complete information on me, my work, my process and inspiration: http://www.filizsoyak.com

Contact me with any questions, interests in my work, queries to buy or exhibit my work: filiz@filizsoyak.com

Peace!
-Filiz

Overdue...

...a video from my solo show in NYC, March 2011

It's been a while...

....but I'm back.

This year has been a challenging year. A year that has humbled me, brought me to my knees, and lifted me up again. Made me realize how important friends and family are, to be good to myself, and that with determination, anything really is possible. That doesn't mean that pain doesn't hurt, but what doesn't kill you...makes you stronger, yes. But it also changes you. It's up to you to make sure it does so for the better.

The cyclical nature of healing and growing is more obvious when it is difficult; when a heart breaks.

The process of making art, is much like the process of life, particularly the great milestones of life.
I worked in my studio today and it was like a portal had opened, accessing what had been stowed away until it became easier to feel...and for the first time in a long time, I felt ready to expel and express what I've been processing for so many months. Rather than talking about things or observing thoughts and emotions...this is the healing stage of "output" I've been waiting for. Just like prior creative cycles, which so naturally mirror my life, the process can never be forced.

I have often explained my creative process in 3 stages...though it's hardly ever so linear, so black and white.

1) First, the sensory experience of life - the "living" fully - with its tangible beauty and pain.

2) Then, the processing, the understanding, the moving through, making sense of, thinking, feeling, sitting with.

3) And finally, when it subconsciously, at a cellular and intuitive level, settles and makes sense, it's time to create, to communicate and express....a time to propel the lessons and impressions outward.

I'm here now at the 3rd stage...but it still requires the 2nd stage...and the 1st stage never ends. Yet, it feels good because it means there is progress. My work is moving through me, which means that I'm moving...forward.

I sat in the studio and wrote for hours, as I painted. It felt good. Great. Familiar. Something I haven't felt  in a long time. Life has kept me busy, occupied...to put it lightly, but it's okay - because I know I've been fully immersed in what is happening in my life.

Before I begin a new series of work, I need to know where I'm going - which requires me to know where I am coming from and what is important to me at the moment. What is my theme, what have I just experienced that needs to be worked out?

I normally start with words to make my thoughts tangible...and to generate ideas. Once I began to write today, I couldn't stop. I wrote and wrote and wrote. Not only words, but titles, themes, questions, answers. I now have over 100 scribbles - titles of unborn pieces. I am not confident I can call it poetry - but maybe for me - it was poetic.

The imagery comes once I begin to paint. Neither the language nor the imagery can be forced. Instead, I have to remain in that quiet but open place of channeling ideas and thoughts without thinking too much about either.

It's a great feeling to feel like I could work for hours...and not stop. It makes me feel like me again.

I'm curious to see what will happen with my work. I'll let you know...

Featured on Original Beans blog as today's Friday artist

I'm happy to be featured as today's Friday artist on the blog Original Beans authored by creative enthusiast, mom of a delightful little girl, and friend & former colleague Laura. She asked me to expand on what my creative process is and how I got started.

Check it out! I'll post the full interview for those of you who are interested soon. And thank you Laura for featuring my work!

http://originalbeans.blogspot.com/2011/06/featured-artist-friday-filiz-emma-soyak.html

Patterns, Symbols, Geometry - Work In Progress

I've been intrigued and fascinated by the colors and patterns of designs in Arabic/Turkish/Oriental carpets, fabrics and tiles. To date, I have visited a tile shop, several carpet and fabric shops and seen beautiful traditional embroideries and designs on clothing in Jordan. I am playing around with a new set of ideas which would be to incorporate these often geometric patterns into my artwork...either as a frame or eluding to the designs under layers of paint.


Today I started working on a piece, 100cm x 100cm that is maybe 1/3 done.
(Below is a photo of the painting in its beginning stages)


Looking through the hundreds of photographs I have taken since I got here for inspiration, I came across a photo I took of an old embroidered cushion on a seat at the Duke's Chapel, Um Al-Kundum. I loved the colors, not necessarily the whole design but found myself drawn to the fleur de lis border surrounding the coat of arm-like design. As I started sketching it, thinking mostly about the colors, I started to draw the border into my sketch...and I liked it. I have never really been drawn to, or rather should I say "didn't think" I was drawn to geometric patterns as a subject in my artwork.
(Below is my sketch and the photograph which inspired it)


Lately I have taken a deep interest into design and symbolism. I was listening to a song on the radio the other day and realized us humans seem to like repetition....notes, sounds, words, shapes. Why are we so drawn to repetition? In music there is a constant repetition of sound creating a rhythm and beat. In design there is often a repetitive symbol made up of line and shape to create a pattern. It does help make things feel complete, whole, contained and orderly. It must be innate. Maybe it has to do with routine being part of life.

Back to the subject...Ben and I went carpet shopping last week, and after looking at several dozen carpets/rugs, we both realized we are drawn to Kilims and similarly geometric-designed carpets. So, now I'm researching them - Visually by sketching those that I am drawn to and if I can find the information, the symbolism behind each design.

I'm still not sure how I'll incorporate these patterns into my work but I'm enjoying playing around with the concept. On the piece I was working on today, I first created a good base of color with several layers of paint. I then made a stencil out of paper of the fluer de lis pattern of the cushion. I spray painted the pattern around the frame of the painting and on the sides. I plan to paint on top of this "border" and alter the color of the pattern as well as work on the "center of the painting".

Below is the painting at the end of today's working day.... more layers and photos to come! (and that is masking tape by the way...not permanent, but I'm liking it)


What do you think?

in Jordan...inputting and outputting

So I'm finally settled in my new home in Amman, Jordan. Well, actually I was settled a while ago, I've just been too busy enjoying the new, or "inputting" as I call it, to sit down and update this blog.
(photo to the Left: detail of door at Duke Bisharat's Diwan, downtown Amman)

Ahhh traveling to and/or moving someplace new is one of my favorite things. The amount of new information, new sights, stimuli for the senses is delicious, and addicting. Since arriving here in early July I have been moving about, meeting people, sampling the food, learning about the culture, trying to learn some Arabic (I'm ashamed to say I've been a poor student), socializing, visiting places with Ben, and taking lots and lots of photos. I've met wonderful people, found and gotten involved in the art scene here, and really feel at home. Jordan is comfortable and very friendly. Amman is a small city but there is so much to see, especially for a newcomer, that I find every task interesting. That doesn't mean I haven't gotten frustrated with certain aspects of this culture yet...but overall, I'm enjoying all the nuances. (photo to the Right: me at Duke Bisharat's property Um Al-Kundom, by artist Tariq Dajani)

As an artist especially, the "input" is particularly important. Input, as I define it, is basically like opening your mind, eyes, ears, nose, mouth and heart to receiving new information. Looking and noticing everything possible...the smells in the street, the dryness of the air, the patterns on a woman's overcoat and hijab, the sweat on a streetvendors upper lip, the eyes of a street cat, the brightly colored cars from decades past, the unfamiliar sounds of Arabic, the beauty behind the grime, the singsong of the gas truck... Anyone can identify with this, if you have experienced something new or traveled to a new place. It doesn't have to be exotic or far away. (photo to the Left: A cave in Little Petra, Jordan)

This experience is something I believe is an important practice, for everyone. Every so often, placing yourself in a new environment to expose yourself to new perspectives and new stimulation. This is how we learn. This is how we compare by juxtaposing what we know to what we have just discovered. This is how we confirm or re-evaluate our beliefs, opinions and views on the world. Even if one doesn't discover anything profound, it just gives you another take on life, and reminds us how small we are, and how much there is to see.

Absorbing and digesting all the input is another story. This takes time. I'm trying to be disciplined about limiting my thirst for input and start my processing. I need to work! My solo show at Zara Gallery is literally only 5 weeks away (not counting the nearly 2 weeks I will be out of the country visiting NYC in September). November 10 is the opening but I have set a deadline (which I know I won't meet) to have my work finished and framed by mid-end of October.
(photo to the Right: courtyard of my studio, Jabbal Webdeih, Amman)

I have painted every day for the past 2 weeks, and I am finally finding a "groove". My studio is finally set up. It's a charming small apartment located next to our apartment in Jabbal Webdeih. Our neighborhood is quiet, tree lined and very residential. It's also the neighborhood apparently, for creatives. Writers, Artists and Academics like to reside here. My studio is very small but has a lovely courtyard in the back with high walls which I can hang my art on. The lovely thing about the Jordan climate is that it's guaranteed to be dry and sunny every day (until late fall I believe) so I have been working (and leaving my work) outside! Yesterday I got so sick of the music on my iPod, I turned it off and decided to work to the smells of Iftar (breaking of Ramadan fast...lamb, chicken...mmm!), sounds of children playing, and the chirping of birds in the tall pine tree which shades my courtyard. There is something to be said about immersing yourself in your environment and connecting to it. This means accepting the fact that bugs get stuck on my paintings and pine needles fall onto my head and into my paint while I'm working. And that when it gets dark, I go home. I have had to get more disciplined about going to my studio early and working straight through. Being an input addict, anything can get me distracted and caught up in a daydream....(photo to the Left: working on a painting in my studio courtyard)

Back to what I was saying about processing the input to start the "output". I have taken lots of photos since I got here and have much inspiration. What to do with that inspiration is sometimes overwhelming. I have made many sketches using oil pastels in my sketchbook...so I have a lot of material. I have ordered 20 boards to be built for me to paint on. I have all my materials and tools to work. So what stops me? Sometimes it's overwhelming to think of all the ideas you have and then decide where to start...I guess that is a good problem to have. Daydreaming is also a curse when you want to process and start outputting. I admire my artist friends who work diligently every day and it shows - they are prolific in their output! I have to remind myself though that for me the key is not quantity, it is quality. I have changed my process a bit. I no longer "have to" finish a painting in one sitting. That I have deemed is unrealistic. Instead, I have been taking my time and absorbing what I do and see on the painting surface. I evaluate, I think. And then finally I say, "HALAS!", it's finished.
(photo to the Right: detail of a painting I am working on)

So far though I think I'm doing ok. I have 3 pieces completely finished. I have 6+ pieces started and about 1/3 done. Pressure I guess is sometimes a good thing for artist-types...it gets us going! More to come...

Art for Ari

It's up! My friend Ari Hest's new album, "Winter Songs" featuring 13 songs he has written (one per week) starting this year is now available on iTunes with one of my paintings as the cover art.

The artwork selected is a painting on paper done in 2005 and is titled "Rupture IV". It is mixed media on paper: acrylic, pencil, oil pastel and sand.

Ari chose that piece out of an assortment of paintings I had suggested. I had made my original selections according to what I felt was the most visually indicative of "Winter" but also pieces that reflected the emotion that Ari's songs evoke.

Check it out on iTunes! (note: link will open up your iTunes application on your computer.)

http://phobos.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?id=278092182&s=143441

My favorite songs: "One, Two", "Broken Voices", "Better Than Before" and "Morning Streets".